Dear Sarah Palin
Your daughter was 17
And pregnant
Hiding your shame with oversize sweaters
And Sunday school smiles that didn’t reach her eyes
I was 21 and joined in the taunts
Against your sanctimonious scripture
Branding Bristol with the scarlet sum of Abstinence only
Laughing with pleasure at a young girls folly
And her mother’s hypocrisy.
And I am sorry.
Sarah Palin, I hate everything you stand for
I have queer friends who gaze at each other
With such an omniscience and feeling
That it hurts to look
And I have to avert my eyes less I crumble with envy for what they have
I evicted a child from my womb by choice
And I take pr
Bachelor Number Never
I'm sick of the dating game,
I never understood the rules.
but I'm fine with whips
and chains
and even a few drinks,
but I never learned the safe word
to cry out
when I'm lonely
and masturbating
to words like
"forever"
and "promise,"
because relationships
are like bondage;
you get off on it
over
and over
until you come
in flowers
and chocolate
and monthly anniversaries:
all bullshit gestures,
because keeping track
of how long you can love
is like counting down
to a new years resolution
never to do THAT again.
relationships come with regret
and I'm holding on to that
like it's going out of s
it's 1:48 a.m.
and I want to write
but the radio distracts me
from my goal
of red light go
green light stop
thinking
about how perfect this song is
for our relationship
there's a cop on my tail
I've got to keep speeding
up my thought process
because you micromanage my inner monologue
I'm almost home
sick for your bed
I spent more time in your sheets
than I did on the road
stay on the road
because the asphalt
will keep me going
in new directions
you always sucked at giving directions
so why am I surprised
that there's an accident
backing up traffic
and blocking the wrong way
back to us.
I'll be here for a while
you are continuously running from him
because you have not read Plath
in a lifetime
and the "black shoe" of his mistakes
fits oh so big on you
time to tell him
for the sake of the one or two
you really matter to,
tell him: "daddy, you bastard, I'm through."
because until you stop
wearing daddy's clothes
-a size or two to big for you...
I'm through with you.
Reflections of A Sunday by bathory-babe, literature
Literature
Reflections of A Sunday
rose-quartz sky leaks starlight
from beneath a veil of ash trees,
smoke curls around the branches
and penetrates the skin.
she smells of 3:30 A.M.
and of stale kisses.
nicotine is her middle name
as she finishes pack
after pack
of pushing down the pain.
rhythm and blues still pound
against the hangover of last tuesday
as the sun rises
from the cracks in the side walk,
an asprin laden road leading the way
past where the evening ends.
she is Katie-Scarlett
on an urban Tara
and it is dawn
and she feels different.
she is alone
and whimpering and alive
and waiting for the dark sky
to pour down upon her once more
and sav
I've concocted fantasies
Before I was born
About love
And "is that what the kids are calling it these days?"
And each one ended
with a soundtrack
I could get off to;
Like a movie
With a twist of the wrist ending
Because it's so damned beautiful
That makes you want to cry,
And that's how it's supposed to be
for everyone.
And I believed that after my first
I could take a bow
And see my name
Next to his
In a rolling marquee
Advertising lessons in chivalry...
But my prince?
he never got back to me,
And I turned into
A woman who got off on angst
And not twelve year old romantic notions:
Movie's so scratched
with S&M boyf
I dated an alcoholic.
he drank me
like I was jack daniels,
and I was on the rocks
of adolescence;
covered in sticky sweet bourbon
trying to breath through alcohol
and finding my way to the surface
of naiveté
all the while facing growing up
without plans for a future:
just the thought of drinking,
sex,
and theater,
drowning in liquor,
sweet as the spotlight
of being young
and wanting to get laid
by the hottest guy around
(you never fully outgrown your high school kegger).
didn't matter if he tried to hurt,
and he did
try
to harm with drunken kinks
and I said no,
but vodka made my breath stale
and certain words won't
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Literature
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CAUTION: Smoking May Cause Heart Disease
he inhaled my poem
in a foggy blue breath,
and I could see my words
absorbed into his lungs.
he exhaled my meaning
like an afterthought,
and threw his appriciation
at my feet.
I put out his disintrest
with my swallowed tears,
but I was satisfied
with the knowledge
that I left one more scar
scribbled on his diseased heart